Cancer for the week from Rob Brezsny

You could be like a thunderstorm that rejuvenates a parched landscape. At the same time, you have the power to express yourself like a thousand-foot waterfall. Why not take advantage of both these potentials? Be both helpful and charismatic, nurturing and alluring. Be of humble service as you flout your magnificence. This is one of those grace periods when you can do good and look good and feel good. I hereby dub thee the Flow Master.

I love this! I reminds me of jillweezul’s comment yesterday about holding drops of water in your hand. Water water everywhere and I can drink it all. I can be the water, I can act like water.

Monday night I saw my sponsor and we discussed getting together to do my 5th step “Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs” The other human being is the important part. And I prefer to replace ‘wrongs’ with ‘part.’ Anyway, as I was saying, we were talking about when. I said that I was no longer in a hurry because the block had shifted and I was once again flowing downstream.

Flow Master. Cracks me up!  I can always use a good laugh.

I really think that this has to do with that thing I was talking about. That the shift of my sensibilities, my attitude, my point of view, was a physical sensation. I’ve made no secret that I’m a witch and this is one of the things I work on. Energy work as I call it. Sensitizing myself to the energies that are flowing around me. I practice trying to feel my own energies, change my energies. One of the things that I could spend more time on is protection. Because I am so sensitive to the energies of people, places, and things around me, sometimes I think I don’t shield myself enough.

I know how to shield I just tend to forget to do it until it’s too late.  Then I have to re-center and ground.  And that can be a simple process or more lengthy depending on what got past my watch.  Must remember to keep my shield polished, clean, and ready to act.

Yesterday I wrote a post about what we say to others.  It wasn’t meant to hurt anyone.  I initially tagged it as private so only I could read it.  But then I decided that this wasn’t honest. When I started this new blog I told myself that it was all or nothing.  I would let it all hang out.  I would speak whatever was truth for me at that moment.  I reserved the right to change that truth.

The purpose of writing that post was to do a mini-process on something I had forgotten was a trigger for me.  It wasn’t mean to hurt the person saying it (I deleted their comment to give them anonymity).  I was simply allowing myself the privilege of saying exactly how I was feeling about it, to get it all out on the table for me to look at.  And I’m just fine.  I’m not angry, I’m not hurt, I’m not depressed.  But I do have to say that it was a major reason of why I don’t play with certain people in the SCA. 

Today I feel in the flow of things.  That I’m not the logjam in the torrent.  I’m just hanging out in my innertube floating and bumping along. And it feels really good.