No matter how hurt I am I need to live in love. And I have never met any one more deserving of unconditional love than The Ex, My Beloved. I know that the couple relationship is over. We’ve both done what we needed to do there and it’s time to move on from that phase of our relationship in this lifetime. I also know that a friendship relationship will come one day and one day soon. You have been my love for hundreds of lifetimes in one way or another. My son, my brother, my lover, my friend, my sparkles in the sun, the bright dolphin swimming beside me, the unicorn of golden horn loving me in the dappled sun.  You *were* the dappled sun. I know you know this and I know you feel the same way. And no matter what, NO MATTER WHAT, you are always beloved to me.

I know that you never meant to hurt me. I know that “screw you” was really a desperate plea to the universe to help you find yourself. You weren’t trying to hurt me, you were fighting for your independence. An independence that only you could give yourself. No matter how much I gave you, it was of little consequence because right now you have to give it to yourself. I know that you are a drowning man just trying to get to the top and breathe.  It was never about me.  I understand these things very clearly. I know you do too.

You are a dear, kind, loving, person with a heart of gold. You have not been treated as such in this lifetime as much as you needed. I am that kind of person too. And I too have been treated badly. I KNOW that we are here together this time around because we are supposed to help heal each other. And sometimes I guess you have to burn something to the ground in order for the phoenix to rise from the ashes into the glorious sun. I’m sorry that we burned each other but I know that we will both come out of this with many blessings.

I count my blessings from you already. These are the things you have given me.

• All I have to do is ask and the Universe will give anything I desire
• I am worthy of a man’s love and there are men out there who know how to love
• I will find more love, exactly what I am looking for
• That I can give of myself and expect nothing in return, although it’s still something I need to work on I’ve made huge progress
• Sparkles and a side of myself that had been buried for a very long time
• You loved me like no one ever has.  You gave me so very much joy and compassion and fun and laughter and wonderful joyous loving sex.  Something I’ve never experienced in this life time.

You are always welcome to read my journal, to see how I’m doing, to find solace and healing and messages there.

May your life continue to blossom and shine and fly.  May you find all the love you need from inside yourself.  May you never hunger, may you never thirst.

Love
Mwoi