As I lay on her table in the semi dark listening to soothing Chinese music, I started to drift as she did her work… The first thing that started happening were flashes of images. As each one came in I saw it, accepted it, and it floated away. These were images of the major points of the last six months with The Ex. And they just floated by with no anger, right on out of my consciousness. An earlier question about whether or not I was still talking and working with Hekate popped into my head and suddenly all the deities from daily devotions started showing themselves. Hekate, Morrigan, Epona, Herne, Jeshua and Mary….. Kuan Yin who held me in her arms on another massage table so many long years ago when I had 4 days sober. And then I saw spring. Spring has been in every reading I’ve done since before Christmas. And there it was again. And I suddenly heard in my mind’s ear and felt it in my heart chakra “You have all your power back, you are healed, you can stand tall.” I can’t explain this but just trust me when I tell you that the voice was surrounded by a rosy peachy pink color and I could see a long colum of turquoise the length of my body with a short, crossing arm piece flowing from my right hand. The same pink as when Kuan Yin held me. A healing soothing shade.  I felt this in my entire body really. But the turquoise column was all about my personal power.

I didn’t get to sleep all that well, toxins coming out and still reverberating over the stuff from earlier in the day, but slept well once I got there.  I feel pretty good today. A very slight emotional hangover but I feel that I’m doing exactly the right things. My higher self still loves The Ex very much but the day to day me really is done with that chapter.  I am very glad that we had such a nice parting in person last Saturday.  It was sweet and loving and I want that to be what I remember (while never forgetting that I don’t want to do this particular thing again)

Last night I painted all my nails, hands and feet, a lovely pink shade that turns to silver.  I selected the color as a bit of protection and healing, the pink for love and affinity, the silver because it is the color of my aural egg and the color of the goddess.  This morning on the bus I noticed that it also changes to gold.  So glad the God decided to stop in too. 

As I was walking to my office from the bus stop this morning I noticed that a pink camellia, which has been in bloom all of December, was STILL in bloom. I asked if I could cut a tiny bloom, it was granted, and so I did. So here it is. My own little spring. Right here and Right now.

Other things are moving well too. I’ve been selling tons of stuff and have made quite a little bundle of money. I have a trip to the post office Saturday morning and will be meeting some folks for hand offs but for the most part, this is done. And if the brown wool kirtle doesn’t sell? That’s totally cool as the brown wool is truly luscious, the gown fits without binding like the linen ones do (wool is stretchy), and it might come in handy some day…

Discovered yesterday that my co-worker here also works part time in the same department where I applied for the new job. Turns out she knows the top dog for the job very well. And she sent him this letter yesterday afternoon Goddess bless her and keep her:

Hi S.,
I wanted to drop you a line because I just found out that a co-worker of mine, Cynthia, has applied for the webmaster position at the iSchool. (I think you are in charge of this department?)

Cynthia and I both work in the Information Core for the Center for Studies in Demography and Ecology (CSDE). She brings a lot of creativity and thoughtfulness to our team and is a pleasure to work with day-to-day. She always responds quickly to the CSDE staff and faculty needs, helps out her co-workers, and overall brings a lot to the table. I will be very sad to see her go, but understand why she is up for a new challenge.

She doesn’t know I am emailing, but I wanted to let you know that after working with the faculty and staff of the iSchool and attending the faculty meetings, I feel she would be a good fit for the iSchool “faculty/staff of one.”

Thanks, B.

And this was his reply:

Thanks B. – I very much appreciate the information! We are just starting to look at the candidates now so it is very timely.

Made my day!   I know I’m in the flow when stuff like this starts to happen.  I feel as though I’ve put my wish out there and have let it go but it sure is nice to get little positive nudges.  I’m happy in this job I have now but it would be very cool to get this other one.  Our current team has broken apart recently due to some aggressive new people and that makes things a bit less than comfortable.  And the pay?  What do you expect from a center that is completely academic and its research is in the social sciences.  Information pays so much better.

Oh! And I forgot to mention that Skanky Nasty Bitch, who wanted to go to Sundays membership ritual never showed up.  Banishing is working just fine.