And this is the clergy I swore to support last Sunday. THIS is the loving support I get from my High Priestess when I’ve lost what I thought was a dear and important love and the death of a dear friend.  Thanks for taking such care of my heart during this extremely painful time and making it so much easier to get through.  THIS is the leader of the coven I asked to join after Samhain.  She doesn’t remember that I loved them so much that THAT is the reason I asked to be on the mailing list myself.  To imply that I was being sneaky and trying to get in even if The Ex didn’t want me there is insulting beyond belief.  I never saw it coming.

Hello Cynthia,
First, I am not sure what relationship you were to the person you mentioned in your prayer on Sunday but I want to tell you that I am very sorry for your loss. Now I understand your response to my question ‘how are you?‘ when you arrived in Gaia’s Temple. I will keep you in my healing prayers.

Next, I want you to know that I have recently spoken with The Ex and I am very sorry to hear about your break up. I hope that you will remain friends. Recently you asked me to send the MoonWise Sabbat invitations to you personally and I wondered why but now I understand. Unfortunately, this has put me in a very awkward situation because if you had told me why you made that request, I would have had to decline. I believe you know that The Ex and I go back a very long way, we have been friends for close to a decade, and he has just in the last year or so found his way back into my circle. I hope that when you and The Ex have resolved your differences and can peacefully be in each other’s company, he will invite you to join him again but I will leave that up to him. Please know that I have enjoyed your presence in circle and I sure don’t want to hurt your feelings. I hope you can understand that this is a hard place for me to be in and this is why I have cc’d The Ex on this email so it’s all above board and clean. I don’t want to participate in any triangulation or create any more upset around this change. I also hope that Gaia’s Temple will continue to be a place where you will come for your Spirit in the community and feel the loving presence of the Goddess.

Thank you in advance for your understanding and blessed be,

Judith

But The Ex and I *are* friends and do feel we could be in Moonwise together.
Maybe not at Ostara but afterwards. There is no ill blood between us that I am
aware of.

I’ve cc’d him because I feel pretty sure that he would be very sad to know that
I am not going to be included in Moonwise.

Cynthia

All I told Judith was that we’d broken up. Knowing the sometimes volatile nature of such things, I think she is just doing the responsible thing in restating boundaries and avoid any fallout affecting her coven. You were still there as my guest, and she just made it my decision, when we’re ready, to invite you again. Nothing has changed.

It’s still just one step at a time, and we’ll see where we are at Ostara.

~P

p.s. So as not to speak for Judith, I am again CCing her, but this is now for us to figure out and I hope to leave her out of it from now on.

To The Ex from me
Just so you know that I'm not making assumptions, I simply meant that you just 
spoke to me like I am 4 years old.  I am not stupid. 

If I'm not to be trusted in Moonwise, them I'm not to be trusted any where.  I 
rescind my membership and pledge. Precious delicate The Ex goes there too.  

As for how I am.  My life currently SUCKS.  Not that you really care.  The best 
thing you could have done Judith was simply not add me to your mailing list.  
Your email was a cruel thing to do and the last fucking thing I needed right 
now.

> Recently you asked me to send the MoonWise Sabbat invitations to you
> personally and I wondered why but now I understand. 

You don't understand.  The Ex and I had not broken up when I sent that request.  
We were still a couple as far as I knew.  I just wanted to belong in my own 
right.  

Assumptions from a high priestess who isn't willing to counsel one of her very 
hurting people is not the high priestess for me.

Cynthia

So there. Pffffft.  Bite me.