I’d say the biggest decisions of your life, Cynthia, were not your career, your marital status, or your home… they were choosing to love as often as you have.

And that’s a lot,
The Universe

Especially, Cynthia, when it seemed in vain. It never is.

*sigh*  It has been a lot.  And many times it has seemed in vain. Especially right now.  But I do seem to keep on doing it. Which I know is a good thing. Keep the faith girl, keep the faith.

I had a really good long talk with a woman who has become a very good friend of mine.  I met her through The Ex.  One of his close female friends (an oxymoron, all his friends are female) who I have always trusted from the very beginning.  She is a gem.  And she has been so incredibly giving of her time while I’ve gone through this. And has had some very good insights about The Ex to share with me. She has treatedus both with love and respect, something no one else has done.  He has gone to her to talk about this too.

I called her because I so badly wanted to call him.  And I know without any doubt that I got far more from the conversation with her than I would have with him. 

I went to get some shipping supplies afterwards, red nose and eyes and all.  And I found a a lap throw afghan thingie that I just had to have.  The palest shell pink, it is very napped and the plush has been forced into fluffy little spirals (not flat like embossing) all over the thing.  Kind of like the hair you see on Buddha looking like either lots of curls or snails.  I just knew it would feel very healing to snuggle in that.  And I did.  All night under the covers I snuggled with my new security blanket.  😉