A brief but much needed vacation. I turn 49 on the 4th and celebrate 13 years of sobriety tomorrow. I take as much of this week as possible to do some puttering, some nesting, some reflection, and in the case of this past year and a half, perhaps the only vacation I’ve had that hasn’t had a crisis around it, knock on wood. Then back to work for only 14 working days before I’m on my own and hunting up fun work.
I’ve dealing with recidual breakup crap and really hope this is the last bit. This is the only relationship ending where I am not friends with the man besides my ex-husband in 1984. I’ve been friends with all the rest, very amiable. But none of them betrayed my like this either. And if they had they could have admitted it instead of trying to make their betrayal something they had to do because I’m me. So you can imagine when it cropped up again a few weeks ago, I still had some emotions tied up with that.
Combine that with the work drama and I’ve been a little sad that this crap has made it difficult for me to be fully present for this momentous new time in my life.
I hope to take these 5 days and re-group, cleanse, do some healing, some rejuvenation, and to get my focus back on track.
Hey kid! (I can call you that because I just turned 51)
Don’t let the weasel-man’s issues spoil your holiday or this wonderful new beginning (sorry weasels, you’re nice animals really), after all, it sounds like it’s his inadequacies that are the problem and you know it in your heart.
Congratulations for your fourth anniversary – I shall raise a cup of tea to you my dear!
HAR! No worries, I dont’ do things that way. I pamper myself, honestly. Having a lovely shrimp salad for lunch right now, chatting with some friends online, Went shopping and got a new tarot deck and some faux suede squares. I’ll have some artsty goodness to show you all on Monday. I be a new woman, really!
P.S. I saw this on Somerset Season’s blog (she’s sweet) and thought you’d like it:
Getting On With It
When the heart stops oozing blood
& the outpouring is clear as water
(so to speak) then you know you’ve
turned the corner & will be well.
when you look inward & all the pathways
are no longer dark but clearly lighted
& shine like transparent straws
then you know you’ll find your way alone.
When the gray morning has nothing to do
with you & doesn’t weigh you down
like a heavy blanket, then you know
that moving on will be easier again and
your body will flow through time
like the river it really is, smooth and deep,
no rocks, no shallows to smash or catch you,
keep you from moving on.
When the heart slows
to its normal rhythm and the beauty
of birdsong at dawn doesn’t make you cry
because you are alone listening, then you
know that everything has happened that is
going to for now, and you can get on with
your life & everything about it that was
yours alone and always finer than
anyone could ever imagine it would be
by Grace Butcher
Lovely! Must be doing well then. I listened to the birds this morning at 4:45am (ack!) and they only make me smile.
Happy birthday and anniversary, beautiful! Enjoy your vacation. You so very much deserve it!
I hope your vacation is everything you need it to be. Congratulations on 13 years – that’s awesome!
Congrats on both achievements. Can’t wait to see what new little beauties you’ll create with a little time off 😉