Cancer for the Week

Two of the best money-saving steps you can take, says TV’s mock pundit Stephen Colbert, are to stop filling your hot tub with champagne and stop lining your gerbil’s cage with hundred-dollar bills. I highly recommend that you brainstorm about initiating similar conservative and preservative actions, Cancerian. It’s time for you to get really serious about shedding wasteful habits, cutting out needless excesses, and culling trivial activities that impinge on the time and energy you have available for the really important things. This shouldn’t be a cause for demoralization, by the way. On the contrary, the more creative you are about setting limits, the more long-term blessings you’ll set in motion.

Whether I want to or not, this is the path I am on. Good thing I want it.

Have a second interview for a second part time job in a couple hours. Had a very nice chat with the fellow who owns the company this morning. After my interview on Tuesday they sent me an email asking for my expert advice about the project. My friend R says this means I got the job. They still have one more person to interview next week so I’m not certain of anything yet but it’s looking promising. The great thing about the Tuesday job is that it has full benefits for the duration of the job. Woot.

It would be fabulous if I could get two part time jobs, both mostly working from home. Going to do a prosperity ritual now that the new moon is starting to wax.

Hekate’s Night

For years my friend and teacher Leon has been hosting an Hekate’s Night at his home. It always falls on the New Moon before Samhain. We were instructed to wear all black and to bring black food.

When I arrived I was surprised at how many people I knew there. People I had not meet through Outer Grove but at other events and other places. It was like old home week. Lots of people to catch up with while the ritualists prepared for the ritual.

We were instructed that once the ritual had completed and we were ready to go back in to feast that once inside we were not to speak. Silent Supper.

I don’t know exactly what to talk about here. Was it powerful? Yes. Was it interesting? Yes. Do I have permission to write about it? Yes. But what do I actually say?

Ah. Yes. Thank you.

Three weeks before Hekate’s Night I was getting a massage from a woman who was one of the instructors at this particular Outer Grove (OG) coven. I wrote a little piece about it and mentioned that she also uses her spirit guides during the massage to see if there are any messages that might be helpful to the client. One of the topics she brought up was Hekate. Was I familiar with her. But of course I am.

Back in OG we were instructed to meditate and look for an indication of what deity we would begin working with. This was the beginning of our Daily Devotional work. Once we were contacted we were to begin making daily offerings and thanks to the deities. That same night as we were sitting in circle having class Leon passed around one of his wands. It was very simple, a sturdy twig really. Nothing special. The length of his forearm from inner elbow to finger tips, much used, it was dark and smooth. Each student looked at it, hmmm interesting was what I was getting from them, and they passed it on. No one seemed very impressed with this wand. Leon said he used it when he was working with Hekate.

The person next to me passed me the wand and the moment I took it into my hand a face flashed before me. Not inches from my face, Hekate looked at me with a straightforward gaze, a purple veil wrapped over and around her head and face. Was I ready? In that briefest of moments I knew I had been chosen and I knew who my deity for daily devotions would be. I was a bit surprised. I had been mulling over Brighid for some time. I did not expect Hekate.

I stared around the circle at everyone and told them what had just happened. Leon seemed very pleased. I don’t know that anyone else was any more impressed with my tale than they were with the wand. The message was only for me. My life as one of Hekate’s priestess’ had begun.

I don’t know why I never went to Hekate’s Night until this year. Partly shyness, partly fear, partly the late hours. I was afraid of having Hekate as a deity. While I have visited the Underworld many times, most of the visits have been on this plane of existence, for some reason I was wary of having a deity who was, I thought, cranky, quick to act in anger, blah blah blah, dark and judging. Maybe that is why. Leon kept telling me to see what I could find out about how Hekate was represented in Britain.

Since that fateful night I have come to learn a great deal more about Hekate. And She is not who I thought she was. As any crone she can certainly be cranky. But it isn’t about being mean. She is a teacher. And many times she is not a crone. She is a giver of enlightenment, she is a guide for the dead, she is a Lady of bounty, and has a strong, sweet heart. She was beloved of Zeus:

“…Hekate, whom Zeus
honored above all others; he gave her dazzling gifts,
a share of the earth and a share of the barren sea.
She was given a place of honor in the starry sky,
and among the deathless gods her rank is high.
For even now, when a mortal propitiates the gods
and, following custom, sacrifices well-chosen victims,
he invokes Hekate, and if she receives his prayers
with favor, then honor goes to him with great ease,
and he is given blessings, because she has power
and a share in all the rights once granted
to the offspring of Ouranos and Gaia.”
(Hesiod, Theogony, 411-422)

So as I was getting my massage Amy asked me if I had seen Leon’s book of notes on Hekate. And I had to say I had no idea that such a thing existed. And found myself reminded that with Leon part of his training process is teaching a person to ask the right questions. And no matter how many hints he gave me about Hekate documentation I never point blank asked him what materials he had and if he wanted to share them with me. Doh!

Two days later I was invited by the High Priestess to attend this year’s Hekate’s Night. And I couldn’t wait because this time I would ask Leon about the notes he’d compiled.

So, we’re in circle, it has been cast and the fun began. A small skit welcoming Hekate. Leon took a bottle of dark (black) beer, shaking it and letting it spray into the air. When it hit the lit cauldron, flames shot into the air. And he passed out a booklet. The Hekate Notes. All typed out nice and neat with graphics and everything. We were only allowed to have one if we told him that we would dedicate ourself to Her. Easy. I’d been working for Her for years. Prayers were said for the beloved dead. Noisemakers galore. Fire. Beer flames. And a spinning top from probably the 40’s or 50’s that made this really eery spooky noise. Leon pumping that thing for all he was worth. And people opening the booklet and reading out prayers to Hekate in no particular order.

I chose a prayer and spoke it with as much devotion as I could. And when I said this line, only days after receiving the spirit smoke photos and my interpretation of the first photo, well, I gasped.

Each night, drawn by bulls of mist you shine your light across the sky.

So now I have devotionals for Hekate that I promised I would say every month on the new moon as her priestess.

Quickie Update

omg.  I am almost never online these days.  Have a little time right now while I wait for a potential client meeting.  Splitting headache too.  Sheesh, the headaches returned after I moved and while I had a few days respite after my acupuncture, I think I need another session.  The weather has been all over the map and I figure it’s partly barometric pressue and partly stress.  Still looking for a solid job.  Interview tomorrow but it won’t be enough.  Not at this rate.  So yeah, stress.

Let’s see.

  • On the 10th I go to the full moon to see how I fit in with the coven.  The other fellow withdrew for the year so it’s just me.  I might get an answer sooner.
  • Miss Mitty and the other kitty, Sophie, have met and are calling their lawyers as a friend says.
  • Studio is organized except for the fabric is still in boxes but that went pretty quickly which means…
  • I need to get busy for Yule.  It will be a very light present year this year, which is probably a good thing but I wish I could do more.
  • Sleeping better
  • Eating better
  • Gas is cheaper (I’ve got serious mixed feelings about that)
  • I got through the M’s on my blog roll, woefully behind reading about you all.  Soon.
  • Life is good

I’m in good shape for the interview tomorrow.  Crossing my fingers that I’ll have at least a 4 month part time job asap.  I’d like more so I could get medical prescription benefits as my migraine meds are $200 for 9.  OMG.

I know it’s coming but goodness…

Growth Spurt

Miss Mitty has been adjusting to the new digs fairly well.  I left her with my folks while I was doing the bulk of the work  and recovering from the fibromylagia (still need to work on that, feel like crap again this morning).  They adored her.  Smitten in fact, said she’s so affectionate.  And she is.  Very affectionate. Just don’t try to get her to sit on your lap or hold her.

She has spent some time hiding in a couple places that I had to discover but she mostly only does that when I’m gone.  Otherwise she’s my little shadow.  Like right now, sitting at my shoulder on the couch (I’m on the floor typing on the laptop) purring like crazy hoping to talk me into a bit more vanilla yogurt.  Which of course she did.

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When Miss Mitty first asked to come live with me she was very shy and scared and that was a lot of stuff she wasn’t comfortable doing.  At first she refused to eat unless I was in the room watching her back.  Wouldn’t get up on the bed between me and the wall, had to be able to run at a snap.  Liked living under the bed, in the closet, behind the couch.  No way could I pick her up.

She wouldn’t eat anything but kibble when she came to live with me.  I tempted her with chicken and tidbits and the best of the canned kitty foods but no go.  Over time she started to like two things.  Chicken, plain, and Taco del Mar’s pork tacos.  So we started eating together regularly.  I turned her into a beggar.  And she can be a shameless beggar too.  Stretching and rolling and basically saying I am too beautiful for you to ignore, so charming that you will give me what you are eating.  It’s pretty hilarious actually.  Even so, the vet said last week that she could stand to gain some weight.

In the last 3 months or so every once in awhile she lets me pick her up without a struggle.  And sometimes if she missed me very much she will put her head alongside my neck and let me hold her and calm her for a minute.  But then she leaves.  I have to be very careful how I read her because this is still pretty rare. Even rarer for her to purr when I do it.

She now has two purrs.  One when she’s basically comfie.  The second is a Power Purr.  She really turns it on when she wants something.  Food or a good loving.  She’s walking back and forth behind me as I type and when I grab the spoon to get more yogurt she does the Power Boost Purr. purrpurrpurrPURRPURRPURRPRRRRRRRPPPPP

But the one thing that freaked her out more than any pet I’ve ever had?  Getting under the covers of the bed.  She would actually yowl and claw and totally freak out.  I had the scratches to prove it.

This morning I woke up find her sleeping beside my pillow.  Never done that before.  Not once, not ever.  It was nice.  Then she took her nose and nudged the comforter.  ?  So I lifted the covers fully expecting her to freak and run as usual and without hestitation she simply walked right under the comforter, lay down, and looked at me like she’d done this all our time together.  ?  So I let the comforter fall and cover her over and she stayed there.  For only 3 seconds but she very calmly walked out as though she did this all the time.

Congratulations Miss Mitty!  You have entered the world of serious comfie snoozes.  I’ll be curious to see how long it takes her to do it by herself.