And this is the clergy I swore to support last Sunday. THIS is the loving support I get from my High Priestess when I’ve lost what I thought was a dear and important love and the death of a dear friend.  Thanks for taking such care of my heart during this extremely painful time and making it so much easier to get through.  THIS is the leader of the coven I asked to join after Samhain.  She doesn’t remember that I loved them so much that THAT is the reason I asked to be on the mailing list myself.  To imply that I was being sneaky and trying to get in even if The Ex didn’t want me there is insulting beyond belief.  I never saw it coming. the emails…

Everything having to do with The Ex continues to turn to shit. 

I was told yesterday that Jeshua (a channeled entity who says and who I believe is Jeshua ben Joseph, Jesus) wants to speak with me directly instead of through The Ex like last month (I did not atttend, he took Skanky Nasty Bitch instead).  I requested a private session with Jeshua (and Judi, his channeler) because I do not want my conversation to be public.  All monthly sessions are taped and sent out around the world as well as transcribed into text emails.  I wanted to have this conversation in a safe place so that I could talk about all that is going on with me and my feelings and my future path. I’ve just been told that Judi no longer gives private sessions.

Guess Jeshua will have to get the message to me some other way…  *sigh*

And me? I am done.  I am no longer interested in a friendship with The Ex.  No need to work hard on that since all the places I might have seen him have, in one way or another, been cut off, I no longer have to worry about it. it’s not like I trust him and what is a friendship without trust. It’s not like he’s mean, he’s not.  He just leaves important information out of conversations so there is a lot of confusion and flurry and ridiculousness.  He’s fine just the way he is and so am I. Best wishes to you Ex.

I’m free.  I am moving on in every way.

And yes, I have still learned some amazing lessons.  But next lesson Universe?  I am willing to hear it in a gentle, soft, loving way. I really don’t need my face pushed in like this. Really. 

I have been informed that I am no longer welcome at the rituals of the coven The Ex and I have been attending.  He had told me that he didn’t want to take this from me but according to the email I just received from the High Priestess this is not the case and I am no longer welcome unless he himself invites me.  But I am of course welcome to continue going to her church and to continue paying my membership pledge.  Not much incentive there seeing as how she didn’t offer me any support for the loss of a friend and a relationship all in 3 weeks.  But my $300 is MORE then welcome.  uh huh.

update: I am welcome any time The Ex decides to invite me. But even if we are friends I still need to be  invited by him specifically. That made me feel really good.  Especially after I just pledged to her church.  I give $300 a year there, that must be why.  I just rescinded my membership and pledge and told her that sending me that email now? when there isn’t a ritual until Ostara? Knowing that there had been a death in the family too? Was cruel.  People can be so full of shit sometimes.

For Brutus, as you know, was Caesar’s angel.
Judge, O you gods, how dearly Caesar lov’d him!
This was the most unkindest cut of all;
For when the noble Caesar saw him stab,
Ingratitude, more strong than traitors’ arms,
Quite vanquish’d him: then burst his mighty
heart. . . .

Greetings one and all~

After returning from a 3 year break from the SCA I have found that, for one reason or another, I simply can not seem to reconnect. After 2 years, I’ve decided that it must not be meant to be.  So with a feeling of sadness and yet relief, I am selling what I have and moving on to another pasture.

I have a webpage up on Medieval Tailor.com with the list of items for sale.
http://home.comcast.net/~beweave1/medievaltailor/sale2008.html

You will find very excellent reproduction clothing pieces as well as just some clothing.  Be sure to check the list of books, there is everything from easily found books to books you simply can’t get your hands on, either out of print or exhorbitantly priced, including a hardback Marie Schuette for you medieval embroiders out there.

I am accepting PayPal or cash only.  No exceptions.  I can either deliver to you somewhere in north Seattle or can mail (shipping costs extra).

Please feel free to forward this far and wide in AnTir.

Thanks for the memories,
Merouda  Tremayne

Jean was more than my brother’s father in law. He was my friend. Ready to fly home on Sunday, he fell and broke his hip the night before. And passed away before morning. His poor body and spirit just couldn’t take one more hit. His family grieves while they navigate the complicated process of shipping a body home to a foreign country for burial.

peu de fleur s’ennuiera de sa petite abeille