The Further Adventures of Perilous Pauline and the Chicken Man

I know.  I wasn’t ready to post yesterday. And I’m glad I waited because things got very interesting before this morning. VERY interesting.

Dinner at his place

I arrive and his small apartment smells amazing.  He has cooked up a pork loin, acorn squash, and a tossed salad with pecans, roasted red peppers, etc…  I was mortified to discover that while I had said that I hated peas I also can’t deal with squash.  oh god.  He had spinach and was very good natured about it all.  It was all cooked to perfection.  His apartment, while very small, was incredibly tidy. From the clean kitchen floor to the stacked towels in the bathroom it was a miracle.

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Recovery, One Night Stands, and Choices

Greg asked a question in the comments from this post.  As I began to respond I realized that it was really a full post.  You know how I can go on…

“You mention that alcoholics tend to fall too quickly, going into stages of intimacy before it might be wise. To me, someone without addiction issues, this sounds damn near like a lot of people I know. We tend to go for love so quickly and sink into its beautiful disorientation because of how it makes us feel. Can you clarify the difference for me? I’m curious to know.”

Greg, that is a very good question.

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The excitement, the agony, the passion, the waiting

The Chicken Man.  Oh yes, this is not about The Egg Man.

A little story…

Several years ago I met a man who I was instantly attracted to, I’ll call him The Biker Folk Singer, er , no that’s too long, I’ll call him M. (I will also say that I never gave The Forgiven or anyone else any inclination that I was uber attracted to M., I have more class than that) I could tell there was chemistry. But he had about a week sober and was pretty gray around the gills.  I figured it was my broken picker going, once again, for a messed up alcoholic.  Over the years he’s stuck around and has real sobriety.  We have a casual friendship, always friendly, always a little something there.  But he started dating someone when he had about 6 months.  (not thought highly of in the programs but he was a newcomer and so was she and they didn’t know any better.  And his picker was seriously broken too)  Any way… Lots to tell behind the cut.

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Just Saying

More later…

Was it the pull of the moon now baby
That led you to my door
You say the nights got you acting crazy
I think its something more
Ive never felt the earth move honey
Until you shook my tree
Nobody runs from the law now baby
Of love and gravity it pulls you so strong
Baby you gotta hold on

If I fall youre going down with me
You’re going down with me if I fall
You can’t take back every little chill you give me
You’re going down with me heart and all ooh yeah

We’re hanging right on the edge now baby
The wind is getting stronger
We’re hanging on by a thread now honey
We can’t hold on much longer
It’s a long way down but its too late

If I fall you’re going down with me
You’re going down with me if I fall
You cant take back every little chill you give me
You’re going down with me heart and all ooh yeah

Ooh baby I couldn’t get any higher
This time I’m willing to dance on the wire
If I fall…if I fall

cause if I fall you’re going down with me
You’re going down with me if I fall
You cant take back every little chill you gave me
Your going down with me heart and all

If I fall…if I fall…ooo yeah