Channeling energies

So. I hear you asking, “What has taken over Beweaver??” She is running wild. And tis true. And while in some ways it’s awesome, in other ways it’s a bit uncomfortable. And I’ve found myself thinking the last few days that there must be a way to harness all this sexual energy that has no real fun place to go and use it for something…

Every night when I get home I’m driven to create. I’m busy from the moment I walk in the door until my head hits the pillow.

Last night was metalwork. I began cutting out the elements for some of my metal pieces that will be either incorporated into a textile piece of some kind or stand on their own as gifts. Lots of sawing. up down up down in out in out, er… Sorry…

Freaked the cat out, all that frantic sawing. She hid in the bedroom all evening. Nuf said.

Picked up the Wheel of the Year project and am working hard (she said hard) on finishing Imbolg with Mabon in the queue. Have a new cloth for the mantle, lovely butter yellow linen with green running stitches. At some point it will have vines on it length wise but for now I need it on the mantle more than in my hands.
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New Inspirations

I’ve been mulling over what I want to do next project wise. Besides working on a couple private projects for a couple of friends. I’ve always got a lot of irons in the fire and there just aren’t enough at the moment I guess.

Yesterday I felt compelled to browse a local fabric shop (great stuff, high prices) and found the cutest little felt bag. They had three styles. A small shoulder bag (black) and two different sized totes (2 shades of blue). I just had to have the black felt bag. Part of me feels bad about the carbon footprint on it, it is made in Nepal. And part of me feels good about supporting some felt workers in Nepal. *sigh*

It’s so cute, screaming for embellishment. I might have to get a couple of these to embellish and sell but this one’s mine…

I also have been working on sketching up some designs for more bags. I pulled out my favorite tarot decks the other day and selected cards that have motifs and designs that speak to me right now. And started making them my own…

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The Beholder

According to physicist Paul Steinhardt, “Good science creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves.” I propose that we expand that formula to make it apply to life in general: Good decision-making about anything at all creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves. That should be your guiding meditation, Cancerian. You are currently at the height of your ability to wrestle long-standing dilemmas into more satisfying configurations. I expect that whenever you capitalize on this potential, you will conjure up fresh riddles that will energize you for weeks.

I mentioned the other day that I’ve been moving through this interesting place, experience, change in myself of late. I spoke about it at the Jeshua session duringt the Q&A.

I spoke of this feeling of detachment in my own life. That I feel very often that I’m watching and observing what is going on with no sense of attachment or emotion. Not to say that I never feel emotion these days, what are the odds of THAT? But it feels as though, unless there is already a strong emotional attachment to a situation such as SNIB or my family member’s relapse, that I am oddly no longer emotionally attached to my life and the events in it, or more accurately that it is waning away. I asked Jeshua if he could speak to me about that. He asked if what I wanted was a progress report. Yes, exactly. Continue reading