Cancer This Week ~ Freedom

‎”Freedom is in the unknown,” said philosopher John C. Lilly. “If you believe there is an unknown everywhere, in your own body, in your relationships with other people, in political institutions, in the universe, then you have maximum freedom.”I think this is the most important thought you could meditate on right now, Cancerian. You are close to summoning the magic that would allow you to revel in what’s unknown about everything and everyone you love. And that would dramatically invigorate your instinct for freedom.

hmmmm.  Letting this one bounce around the brain pan for awhile…

What Is That?

Now is the time between leaving my coven and meeting with the High Priestess to tie up loose ends. It is the quiet time. I find myself really considering what it is I want to do now with my practice. For many years my practice was very quiet, a daily devotion for certain but nothing really magical or celebratory, just a solitary, peaceful, constant connection with the, hmmm, divine seems too large and important, but you know, that simple knowing it’s all one. With occasional forays into magical workings.  Generally in the past I only did real focused magic in a circle when I had real need. My magic was magic of the kitchen stove, magic of the tended garden, magic of the french knot, magic of a good night’s sleep and a purring cat. Worked for years and now I know, I had what I needed. I needed to know that.

I also find myself asking what is my connection with deity right now? Do I still feel connected to the deities that have been part of my daily devotions? Have I felt connected to all of them? Daily? WHO is speaking to me now? I’m feeling a need for major simplicity in my life, not just spiritually either.

(This is a funny aside but as I started typing this about my High Priestess my phone rang and it was her, or so I thought, but it was my teacher calling from the HPs’ phone and I heard her in the background going, oh wrong number and I said “I was JUST thinking about you” and they said they’d call me tomorrow. How wild is that? Still connected, yes indeed. That was kind of weird.)

So I’m down here getting ready to finalize a project I really want off my plate (I must get these projects for others off my plate, I simply MUST) and my nephew, who is 8 years old, came down. He stood in front of my altar and pointed at Herne/Cernunnos and said “who/what is that?”  Hmmmm. That is the Lord of the Animals, he makes sure that the animal world works right.  “And who is that?” he asks.  That is the Goddess of the Harvest, she takes care of the grains and the fruit. “And them?” That is the statue of the three aspects of the Goddess Brighid, she rules over childbirth, the forge, and poetry. “Ah poetry.” He likes poetry, my nephew is no ordinary boy. I showed him how to use my singing bowl and then he went upstairs as they were getting ready to leave tonight. They fly away tomorrow and I am the sad. (I want to point out that he did not touch one thing on my altar. He is a very curious boy, yay!, but he instinctively knew not to touch but point only. I hadn’t said a word about it.)

I found it so interesting to be in the place to tell him in the simplest ways possible, in the most approachable ways possible, about my altar and the eensiest glimpse into my spiritual practice. And I realized that his curiosity really helped me coalesce what it is that connects me today. Lady of the Harvest and the Moon and the Lord of Death and Resurrection and the Sun. That’s it. Simple. Forgive me all you others as I pull in as the year really becomes dark.  As I allow things to percolate in the hibernation and quiet work of the dark half of the year. More will be revealed. We are always connected, You are always revered. Even if I don’t say your names every day, nothing has really changed.

You can see here a variety of things on my altar, special coins including sobriety year coin and one silver coin with an engraved charm made for me and charged.  Jesus and Mary Magdalene as a couple. Lakshmi. Copper plates, one for Mercury and one for Lakshmi. A small citrine orb and one blown glass orb with a waves and crescent moon. The spiral goddess.  A feather fan of local bird feathers including crow, jay, sparrow and pigeon. My cauldron for stick incense. Hekate’s black dog. My white handled knife. Bits and bobs.

Happy as a Clam

And yet bittersweet.  My brother and his family have been visiting this past week and I’m so sorry that they are leaving tomorrow.  They live on the other side of the planet and I just don’t see enough of them.  This visit has been particularly wonderful since my nephew now speaks more English, I speak a bit more French, and we get along really well.  He’s adorable and an 8 year old boy.  A bundle of energy.  We’re all exhausted but I will miss him terribly.

Mr. Furnace has met my entire family and that went well.  Otherwise we’ve not seen as much of each other as usual but ebb and flow, ebb and flow.

I’m still waiting to find out if I am on the short list for the job I interviewed for almost 2 weeks ago but my brief phone conversation with them yesterday gives me hope that it will happen. I made the short list!  Friday at 3pm!

This has been the most glorious October, er now November, in recent memory, everything you hope autumn will be.  Trick or treating was a blast this year and I look forward to photos.

Love to you all!

Cancer This Week – Halloween / Samhain

Don’t try harder, Cancerian; try easier. Don’t turn your focus into a white-hot beam of piercing intensity; relax your focus into a soft-eyed enjoyment of playing around with the possibilities. Don’t tense your sphincter, marshal your warrior ferocity, and stir up your righteous anger at how life refuses to conform to your specifications; rather, send waves of tenderness through your body, open your heart to the experiment of blending your energy with life’s unpredictable flow, and marvel at the surprising revelations and invitations that are constantly flowing your way. Halloween costume suggestions: Mr. Smooth, Ms. Velvet, Dr. Groovalicious, DJ Silky.

Or perhaps Mrs. Furnace, Ms. Flowing, Madam Flower, Sweet Bliss, Just Breathing…

And of course going as the Green Faery for the family Halloween outing.  Oh boy oh boy, the French Connection is in town and we’re going Trick or Treating on Sunday.

The Flow of Gratitude

The less I worry the more good things happen.  Such a Paradox.

  • Got a huge check the other day from a benefactor who thinks about my welfare. There are angels in this world.
  • My brother and his family arrive tonight and I can hardly wait.
  • Mr. Furnace calls me Mrs. Furnace, having a really grand time.
  • My home is lovely.
  • People are contacting me for work, things are happening.
  • I’m grateful. I’m sober. I’m sane.
  • I’m not suffering fools, letting them drop off the radar.
  • It’s raining and blustery.