Getting Nekkid

Oh, I had the bestest time I did.

We had a really wonderful drive north to the property.  Chatted all the way.  About all kinds of interesting things.  About 5 miles before our destination we veered off and drove to the top of the ridge to see the view of the Puget Sound and the San Juan Islands.  We saw a soaring eagle (the second one for me in two days) and heard the ravens, and on the side of the road, just a few feet from the car, we saw a deer.  It started to walk away but I called out to it (animal guide) and he stopped and looked and wiggled his soft nose and shook his young antlers at us.  Aaaaaah.

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So Grasshopper, what have you learned?

Untitled-1Well, Master, I’ve learned to be a grasshopper for one thing.  I’ve learned that I need to play, that nose to the grindstone was killing me.  I needed this 10 months off, stressful as it’s been, to just be with myself.  To see how much I’ve grown, changed, since I began this journey.  I’ve learned that I want balance.  Part grasshopper, part ant, part wild woman, and all master.  Yes, for the first time in my life I feel like the Master that Jeshua talks about.  He says we’re all masters already.  We just don’t see it. I see it now.  And I’m going to toot my own horn on this.  I’m going to give me my due.  I’m going to own the fact that I’ve become far more than I ever hoped I would be. It brings tears to my eyes to realize the gifts I’ve been given that I didn’t even know I wanted.

Does it mean I’ll always be serene?  Nope. Does it mean I’ll never make mistakes? Nope. What it means is that I can go through those things with grace.  That I can shine no matter what. That I can be a beacon, live a useful life, in spite of it all.  Fuck, being a beacon can be hard. Continue reading

One Step Down, Three to go

The job I applied for that I really want, opposed by all the jobs I’ve applied for that I don’t really want, has moved one step forward in the process.  HR has approved my application and sent it on to the department.  Now they can legally interview me.

Steps to get this job

  1. HR approves resume and forwards to hiring department
  2. Hiring department schedules an interview with me
  3. I click with the hiring manager
  4. They offer me the job at the salary I want

The job offer letter has been created and will be burned at the coven’s full moon rit this week.  I have one for my personal altar too.

Stayin in the flow

I’ve had this feeling for some time that Beltaine would be a breakthrough for me.   Don’t know why, I just have.

I have been doing all I can to channel the stress that is my life into positive pursuits but some days have been really challenging.  I’m glad that Beltaine is this week and full moon is next week. Lots of magical opportunities.  I know the magic has been working because my health (aside from migraines) has been most excellent, family and self have been protected, etc.  This one thing has been eluding me.  It’s hard under these circumstances to always keep the faith and to trust that I will receive the wonderful job with wonderful people with wonderful pay and benefits at a wonderful location.  In times like these I’ve felt willing to do just about anything even something I knew I wouldn’t enjoy, just to pay for the car and insurance and food and the like. Continue reading

Money woes and money flows

Right?

Here’s hoping. Still haven’t won the big lottery but I did win $3 which translates to three free tickets. The big drawing is Friday. Beltaine. Lots of money magic going on over he’ah.

Called the attorney today and got his advice on how to handle the car. He says given the nature of my current payment arrangements with the creditor, it could be a couple months before they even notice I’m late. And since I’ve never been late, it’s best not to let them know and call attention to the situation. So. I have found a little more time to breathe.

Waiting for food stamps, do they mail them? I have no idea how this works.

Lots of job applications in, the local university is receiving American Recovery and Reinvestment Act (ARRA) funding in May and expects to be opening up a lot more positions. Crossing fingers and toes…

It’s a gloriously beautiful day here in the Pacific Northwest, going for a walk with a friend around our local Green Lake, had a great rit last night with the homies for Beltaine, raised some incredible energy (pow!), life is still good, still beautiful, still worth it all.