OMG. I just saw something. TVI is afraid of me/us. OMG. That is what his problem is. He’s scared to death. That is what God’s Rottweiler sees in their meetings. Fear. O. M. G.

That is the saddest thing of all. Deserving of sympathy. Indeed it is. How awful it must be to live in his skin. What happens when he goes home? I can only allow myself all of 5 seconds to try and sit in that place. It is so screamingly unbearable that I can’t bear to be there. How does he live there for such long periods? The sad thing is that I can imagine. I lived in fear for years. And I did want a lot of pity because of it. But I thought everyone lived like that. I thought it was what made the world go round. And on some planes that is true. Continue reading →

It isn’t sunny it isn’t hot but I have the dog days syndrome. Not doing much of anything really. Stuff I need to do is getting done but that’s aboout it.

I did get one of the photographs that my brother took in Utah last week. And it’s gorgeous. A teaser for what is coming when the full album is complete.

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As anyone involved in web design, publishing, that kind of thing knows, you never want to use actual English text as a placeholder in a design. You don’t want the client to read the text and assume that you are saying what they didn’t want to say. So most of us use what is called “Lorem Ipsum,” and have done so since the 1500’s. This way the client sees text and sees how it works with the layout but they don’t get all mixed up in trying to read it and think that is what you are really going to use.

Lorem Ipsum is a chunk of text, in Latin, and has been traced to Cicero. It looks like this:

Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipisicing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Ut enim ad minim veniam, quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat. Duis aute irure dolor in reprehenderit in voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur. Excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident, sunt in culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum.

But what does it mean? Until today I never bothered to check. But I’m building a new site (finally!) and also have short timer’s disease on the job and, well, I decided to look. I’m just so impressed. And I will use Lorem Ipsum until I die knowing that not only does it do a good job at placeholding but in many ways it speaks to me, to my heart.

1914 translation by H. Rackham

But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?

Wow. 2000 years old…

The god’s are smiling upon me today. I’ve always considered Friday the 13th to be a lucky day for me. And I just now realized that today is one of them.

I have come from a brief meeting with God’s Rottweiler. I didn’t intend to discuss much but after all he’s done for me I wanted to tell him the news of my decision to leave in person instead of just hearing it from his boss. He deserves that respect and being a Mormon from Texas he understands the rites of respect. That is my assumption but I could tell from his expression that it pleased him when I said that I wanted to honor him in that way.

I never expected what went down next.

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