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Lazy Sunday

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I was just looking at this photo and it hit me.

The vase is from Portugal, the statue from Greece, the pillow from France, all gifts brought to me by friends. I have so many friends all over the world, interesting friends, lovely people, and I suddenly felt overwhelmed with gratitude for how good my life is.

And the Mitty? Miss Mitty? The Kitty Mitty never leaves my side if she can help it. It’s really about being in a prime spot to get random pets all day but hey, I can tell myself it’s love right? Love and a sheepskin bed.

My own art, my mothers high chair, my first stuffed animal sitting in my first chair, the ancestor altar and pet cemetery, grandma’s tatted lace linens, and the ever present box of stitching tools and random thread, a turkey bone, and pins, always pins…

West altar with boob shell, stitching in progress, always stitching, books, never enough books.

Christmas in May… The cactii are Haaaaaappppy

Just an Update

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Okay, that was brief.

Here’s the truth.  I’ve been stressed beyond belief.  Unemployment turned me down, three appeals.  I’ve been interviewing for a position at my old company and it’s a good one.

And I got a job.  They hired me yesterday then I had to jump some hoops, they wanted to talk to the woman who fired me and I refused.  So 24 more hours of really edgy stress.  I got the job anyway! They love me!  I start June 1st.  I’m predicting that since it’s full time that I’m going to be busy and a bit tired for awhile.  One reason I’ve been a bit absent and will continue to be so.

In my second interview I sat down at the conference table in front of 2 of the 6 people who were going to interview me and my knee hit the emergency latch and the table split in two and folded in half.  Guess they know how I handle very unexpected and sudden stress.  When asked how I handle competing priorities I told them that I warp time.  One lady shot out her hand and said “You’re Hired.”    It was 8 days before the final FINAL offer was made but I’m just ecstatic.  These folks are so very nice, it can be a home I’m thinking.  My cubicle walls (3 real walls at least, not some pod) are eggplant purple and there is a bit of privacy there.  I knew it was the right place.  I also discovered that one of my BTW mates works there, also a good sign, he’s been there a long time.

The other thing happening is that I’ve been in the budding first weeks of beginning a relationship with someone.  It’s amping up and things are getting intense interesting after about 6-7 weeks of just getting to know each other.  We have a lot in common, a 30 year history of mutual friends and music interests and we think very much alike, very similar minds.  So many things in common I really can’t list them here.  He’s a doll really and we both have stelliums in our natal charts, his scorpio and mine leo.  My Cancer sun makes the scorpio thing look like a good idea and his other planets balance him, he’s a kind and playful scorpio.  We both have the same rising sign.  My intuition says that this is the guy that my ex and Steve sent me.  A rockin’ chicken man.  And guess what?  We have never met.  We meet Friday.  Another reason I’ve been a bit absent and will continue to be so if all goes well.

At any rate there is a lot of exciting change going on.  Boy Howdy, it’s pouring over here.  I can finally breathe again.

I had to share that fabulous news.

So I’ll be around, don’t give up on my blog, I’ll just be a bit sporadic as I adjust to all the new and wonderful change that is going on.  The Honey Years are finally getting to the sweetness.  The bee spit months appear to be well on their way out.

Cancer this week

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Sci-fi author Neil Gaiman sometimes invites his readers to get involved in his creative process. While working on the story “Metamorpho,” for example, he Twittered, “Trying to decide if broccoli is funnier than kohlrabi in a list of vegetables.” When a number of fans suggested “rutabaga” instead, he took their suggestion. (Thanks to The New Yorker for that report.) I’d like to borrow Gaiman’s approach, as you’re entering a phase of your astrological cycle when you’ll have maximum power to shape your own destiny. So here’s my question: What accomplishment would you like your horoscope to say you will complete by May 15?

I wish I knew.  I thought it was all about getting a new job, then it was about cleaning up after the fire, but before that it was about getting my unemployment benefits.  Right now, I’m back to focusing on getting my unemployment benefits.  It’s been 6 weeks since I lost that horrible job and they say to be prepared to wait 6-8 weeks.  A friend of mine waited 13.  I have enough money to get through 13 weeks but then it’s going to start getting a bit scary.  The money would have lasted longer if I hadn’t had to spend money on the new apartment.  Worth every penny and some new tools that will last me years.  I can live with that.  I love tooooools.  Unless of course they are human.

Hmmm what would I like by May 15th?  Whatever the universe thinks I need.  Instead of putting energy into what I want exactly and instead getting what the universe says I need and on its timeline not mine, I think I’ll just leave it alone.  It seems to me that I can just put out what I want (which I’ve done) and not put strings or dates or details to it and I’ll be happier.  So yes, I’d love to have love, money, and joy. But not sure that May 15th matters.  Let’s see how you work it all out universe.  In the mean time I think I’ll follow the advice from Under the Tuscan Sun. Go work on your house and forget about it.

Cancer This Week – True Love

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Happy Valentine Daze, Cancerian! After meditating about what advice would be most valuable for your love life in the coming months, I decided on this challenge from poet William Butler Yeats: “True love is a discipline in which each divines the secret self of the other and refuses to believe in the mere daily self.” In other words, create in your imagination a detailed picture of your loved ones at their best. Each day, make it a point to feel joy and gratitude for their most excellent beauty and power — as well as the beauty and power that are still ripening and will one day appear in full bloom.

I think this is what I always do this in the beginning. I think most of us do. It’s keeping it alive when the daily gets overwhelming that is the trick.

It’s not the first thing on my mind these days. Spring, getting a new job, my camera is breaking up and acting weird. Still stalling on projects, watching Foyle’s War a lot as the netflix come in and go out, other Brit mysteries on streaming when they aren’t here.

What I really want to do is rip out the 30 year old carpet in my bedroom (what a dust/mite/dirt magnet, yeuck) and paint the walls a lovely spring green and put up my yellow and green striped curtains from my cottage in the woods. *sigh*

What I really want to do is skip down the street singing songs (oy my knees)

What I really want to do is be Forest Grove full time… 😉

Ah well, they are the things of dreams, except perhaps the skipping down the street part. I can get there, I need to get my creaky self outside and start walking those hills again. Spring is here and it’s light until 5:30, no good excuse.

Tra la tra la.

One Day At A Time

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Well.  I went to a meeting.  It happened.  I got asked for my phone number.  I knew he would ask me one day. Someone I’ve mentioned before.  That man I’ve known a very long time, who was a friend of my ex-husband’s.   He’s the one who smokes for those who might have a good memory.  He’s older, he’s been in an accident or two and has a speech impediment.  He owns free and clear three cars and house but like everyone else is struggling in this economy.  Memory coming back?  Darn it, he has a heart of gold.  We sat next to each other cuz I was in a friendly cheerful mood.  Right before the close of the meeting he puts his arm behind me and says “Will you give me your phone number?”  I nod yes and after the meeting I call him on his cell.  I’ve had his number for months but I haven’t called him.  I know.

I’m driving home and several things occur to me.

  • I’m supposed to be looking for new things in places and packages I don’t expect them to be.
  • I need a Beginner’s Mind.
  • When I felt his arm around me it felt good.  I got zapped.  And as I realized this in the car, I almost burst into tears.

Hell I have NO idea what it all means.  NONE.  But I do know when I get a big Energy Zinger.  I also know that very soon my phone is going to ring.  I started future tripping all over the place, coming up with reasons why I didn’t want to answer that call when it came in.  And said to that voice in my head, “STOP.  Ssssssshhhh.  Let It Be.”

Breaking out the tights, the cute skirt, the boots and the floppy sweater cuz I am going dancing TONIGHT.  It’s almost sold out and people on FB are starting to scramble for tickets.  I’m going early. . .