for now

Thank you my friends for your good thoughts and wishes.  I appreciate it much.

See you next week…

Whatever you do, Cancerian, DON’T open the door of that closet that hasn’t been opened in years. DON’T poke your nose into the funny business that has been going on behind the scenes. DON’T peek inside Pandora’s other box, or pick the fruit of temptation off the tree of knowledge, or rush in, like a trusting fool, where angels fear to tread. DON’T do any of these controversial, forbidden things, my dear Crab — unless you want to risk embarking on some enigmatic, elemental, enlightening adventures.

I think the Universe is opening the door for me. It’s been open for awhile but is about to get wide open I’m guessing. I’m treading the path in front of me. One step at a time.

My father had another small stroke last night. He’s had many over the past couple years and while this one was no different and they sent him home, each one does rob him, a little more each time, of his brain power. Memory, speed, computation, that kind of thing is just being taken away. And what is hard is that he knows it. It breaks my heart. Like he did when I was a little girl (and not always so little) I want to protect him, take away the hurt, make it all better. But the only thing I get to do is open my heart as wide as I can and let it all rain down on me. The rain of forgiveness for past wrongs, the rain of sadness for the knowing that this life is temporary, the rain of joy for the time spent with an amazing and wonderful father, the rain of love that it is what he wants the most from me and it’s the one thing I can truly and easily give him.
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