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About Cynthia

I am a textile artist, embroiderer, wood burner, costumer, painter, and weaver who sees magic and change in the chain stitch and a well done Palestrina knot. I wish I had more control over the ways of the human world but alas, all I can control are my actions and my attitude in life and the consistency of my stitches. And sometimes even that doesn’t pan out as hoped and I must rip rip rip.

Just because I can

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I adore the work of Stephanie Pui-Mun Law. And her forthcoming (but not soon enough) tarot deck has me squeeing all over the place. There are very few cards left for her to complete. But her work with the suit of wands just well, takes my breath away. If this rocks your world in any way, you really must keep your eye out for her deck in 2009. Shadowscapes Tarot

While the cat’s paws really make me giddy, those little foxes she uses so much scampering about, well, it must be said. Aaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

God’s Rottweiler

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Last night when I got home from work I decided that I needed more than a meeting. I wasn’t in danger of drinking but I did need to do something.

I called on the powers of air to aid me. Using sound, scent, and voice, after casting a quick circle around my permanent altar, I told the negativity and stress to leave my life and when I felt that work was done I requested calm and peace to enter it. I made two promises to myself. That I will try very hard to take the highroad when in any communication with the boss and that I will do all I can not to engage when he sets the bait on the hook. Easier said than done but I’ve done this before and having a plan makes it easier to remember if I start to go there…

And the winds began to blow shortly afterwards. Last night as I was reading in bed before sleep I could hear the soft pitter patter of rain on the blackberry leaves outside my bedroom window. Aaaaah. That is one my favorite sounds ever in the whole wide world. That and the fallen and dry blackberry leaves rustling in the autumn winds. I love the sounds I hear outside my window when drifting off too sleep. Today the sky is blue with white puffy clouds and the chestnut tree blossoms are scenting the little park by my office in a heavenly aroma. And everything is better. Different and better.

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Hawthorns and other ramblings

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In the Seattle area, the hawthorns always bloom about two weeks after May 1st. Traditionally, Beltaine is celebrated when the hawthorn blooms. I’ve always felt that Beltaine in my neck of the woods is two weeks later. Washington State is the furthest north of any of the continental United States (they don’t include Alaska it seems). While it is about a week late (the seasonal changes this year have been a week or two later than usual the past couple of years), it is, because it is nature, right on time…

Rain and hawthorns…

In front of Denny Hall. For you Amphybia…

You can see last autumn’s haws still clinging to the branch. (A hawthorn tree’s fruit is called a haw)

Studio Blogging – Muwahahahahaha

I need some beauty in my life right now

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I noticed the other day that the golden chain tree (Laburnum) is in bloom. I don’t know exactly what it is about this tree but it makes me so happy to see it in its full glory.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh

Tis muggy here today. Stifflingly muggy. Tonight it promises to rain and after the very high heat of this weekend that will be fine with me. Less on the water bill…

Friday I got some awesome support from folks at my 12 step meeting. Including a really nice hug from a guy who doesn’t usually say much. He said “you’re a good person and you’re handling this very well.” I really, really needed what I got Friday evening.

Saturday as I was walking across the parking lot on my way to silver smithing class a crow buzzed me. Continue reading →

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Tis a long story and I not only am way too busy but also just too tired of it all to write it out anywhere I don’t have to. Suffice it to say that Boss repeated his inappropriate behavior and has been officially reported. Now the hard work begins.

Action Items

  • Classes for both of us on communication. While I’m sure I could always use help here, he believes I am soley to blame and denies any problems. They don’t believe him because of his behavior with his boss and her left hand of god administrator. He has to go to the classes anyway.
  • I have requested a facilitation meeting with a third party to help us see each other’s viewpoint as I do not wish to meet alone with him at this time. I want action items. I want to show that I am totally willing, keep my side as clean as possible, and give him all the rope he needs when he fails to see his part and gets himself fired. (I was told he either gets willing and makes some serious changes or we change it for us. so to speak. Basically, if he doesn’t get it hasta manana baby) It rarely goes well. I have writen up the invitaion addressed to him to meet with said third party of his choice, it has been sent.
  • I must write up a calendar of university courses that will bring my web skills further into the 21st century and the department will send me.
  • I must have ready at the facilitated meeting
    • a narrative of how I saw the events in question
    • goals for our progress
    • my training calendar (for both personal and professional growth)

I will be documented to the teeth. It is not his forte says LHOG. Suffice it to say, I saved his bacon in a meeting on Thursday when I should have let him fall flat on his face (LHOG’s words not mine). Since I saved him, he is convinced that I ruined everything and can’t see how he screwed the pooch. If I had not saved him he would have had to explain to the client why the wish list boss asked for can never be given. I should have let him squirm but I tried to help the client and made life very difficult for myself.

*sigh* Rat Bastard scum sucking shithead poor guy who is so afraid of everything that he is impossible to work with.

He has been told that under no circumstances has he shown in any way that I deserve to be fired.

I hope to mop the floor with him with my documentation and my willingness to be wrong, to apologize, and to change. I hope that we can find happy resolution and that I don’t have to quit. I get the feeling that LHOG is on my side and while we hope that we get positive results out of all I’m doing, I get the distinct impression that I have Machiavelli on my side and that Boss isn’t well liked in that LHOG office.