The Beholder

According to physicist Paul Steinhardt, “Good science creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves.” I propose that we expand that formula to make it apply to life in general: Good decision-making about anything at all creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves. That should be your guiding meditation, Cancerian. You are currently at the height of your ability to wrestle long-standing dilemmas into more satisfying configurations. I expect that whenever you capitalize on this potential, you will conjure up fresh riddles that will energize you for weeks.

I mentioned the other day that I’ve been moving through this interesting place, experience, change in myself of late. I spoke about it at the Jeshua session duringt the Q&A.

I spoke of this feeling of detachment in my own life. That I feel very often that I’m watching and observing what is going on with no sense of attachment or emotion. Not to say that I never feel emotion these days, what are the odds of THAT? But it feels as though, unless there is already a strong emotional attachment to a situation such as SNIB or my family member’s relapse, that I am oddly no longer emotionally attached to my life and the events in it, or more accurately that it is waning away. I asked Jeshua if he could speak to me about that. He asked if what I wanted was a progress report. Yes, exactly. Continue reading

Cancer for the week

Lewis Thomas was a physician who wrote elegantly about biology in books like The Lives of a Cell. I want to bring your attention to his meditation on warts. “Nothing in the body has so much the look of toughness and permanence as a wart,” he wrote. And yet “they can be made to go away by something that can only be called thinking . . . Warts can be ordered off the skin by hypnotic suggestion.” Thomas regarded this phenomenon as “absolutely astonishing, more of a surprise than cloning or recombinant DNA.” According to my astrological reckoning, Cancerian, you currently have a comparable marvel at your disposal. Using the power of your mind, you can shrink, dissolve, or banish a wart-like vexation.

Well, that is certainly good news. Because if anything is a wart in my life at the moment it is the woman I referred to yesterday. Yes, I hold my ex partner accountable (this did not have anything to do with sex btw, just so that’s clear). Yes, he brought the interfering woman into our lives. But I had feelings for him. I never had any for her and she declared me her enemy before ever meeting me. For no reason of any kind. I have no idea why. I do know that he did nothing effective to dispel her from that belief. And even today, it appears they are still friends. After all that happened.

But I think that might be changing. I know that 5 months ago I did a banishing ritual to keep her away from me. It appears to be weakening which is not surprising as I gave a timeline of 6 months. Time to renew it since obviously there is need, again away from me only. He wrote me after yesterday’s blowup and said that he doesn’t want her there either. Perhaps between the two of us, we can make that so. So Mote It Be.

I love that this physician refers to what us witches know as wart charming. That this is valid through thought. As a child I had terrible warts on my hands. Weekly sessions at the doctor trying to burn them off. Oh, the pain. Finally a physician’s assistant took me aside, got out the heavy duty shit and burned them for so long that blisters formed underneath them and when the blisters healed the warts fell off. Leaving huge holes that it took quite a while to heal. I was a potter at the time and that was fun. But the point is, eventually the rememdy was found. It was so incredibly painful that I could hardly bear it but it worked.

I find this to be a fit metaphor for what is going on right now. And I find it contains a hopeful message. She will be out of my life for good, at least in spirit. Perhaps she’ll feel uncomfortable because of the renewed banishing and not have a good time and never come back. I think from now on, instead of calling her SNIB (Skanky Nasty Interfering Bitch) I will call her Warthog, or Wart or perhaps Warty Bitch for short (or is that long).

I realized today that keeping a link to my old blog that still contained all the pain from the past year, which included a breakup, a family death, and the end of BFF, that it was still poisoning my life. I have deleted that account completely, removed the link to it in my link list and removed the reference to it in my About page.

This Sunday is the full moon. In Scorpio. A good time for endings, protection, and new beginnings. So Mote It Be. Wart? I have a banishing powder with your name on it. Just try and come by my booth at the faire. Just try. Just give me one reason to out you in public.

Reader, did you think that because I can be compassionate that it is my way? Sorry. I’m still human. I find it easy to be compassionate with those who I love or who I don’t know. I have a long ways to go to find compassion for those who hurt me on purpose. And it appears that I plan on giving her stuff back to her on a plate. But mostly this is about protecting me, not hurting her. If I protect myself well, the rest shouldn’t be an issue at all.

Whack it?

Normally you’re inclined to massage problems until they relax, not bash problems until they break. Your preference is to paint fuzzy, impressionistic pictures rather than creating crisp snapshots. Nevertheless, the astrological omens indicate that in the next two weeks, you should take an approach recommended by Winston Churchill: “If you have an important point to make, don’t try to be subtle or clever. Use a pile driver. Hit the point once. Then come back and hit it again. Then hit it a third time — a tremendous whack.”

Hmmmm. Am I supposed to hit something hard or just create a crisp snapshot?

Last night I dreamed that my partner (whoever he is) proposed and gave me a ring. In a tent. And all I wanted to do was make sure I got the air mattress blown up. He kept saying but wait! And I’m all, that is gorgeous, thank you so much, do I plug the air thingie into the cigarette lighter in the VW bus?

And he was CUTE too. And the same face that was popping up into my mind a couple months ago. So does this mean I’m going to meet him and I need to hit him with a whacker? Or that I need to get my visualization very crisp. RIGHT NOW. Or that *I* need to get hit with a whacker? Cuz I was crazy to be all concerned about that air mattress with that gorgeous man wanting me like that. Unless of course I wanted him to wait until it was usable so I could thank him properly. Now there’s a thought.

*laugh* I’m sure more will be revealed.

Sacredly Naked

From Free Will Astrology:

In recent years there has been a rash of climbers shedding all their clothes on Mount Everest. A sherpa by the name of Lakpa Tharke claims the world’s record for high-altitude nudity, having stood skyclad for three minutes at the 29,035-foot summit. Some Nepali authorities are seeking a ban on such displays, believing that it defiles the revered mountain. “How would Westerners feel about people stripping in church?” they ask. Not meaning any disrespect to them, I urge you, Cancerian, to make “in the buff on the holy mountaintop” your power metaphor of the week. Blend sacredness and nakedness in any way that appeals to your imagination, especially if it’s in high places or makes you high.

Do I have to do it alone? Spring has sprung and my mind has turned to looooove. And well, yeah, lust. *sigh* I no longer do lust without love (been there done that). Eyes are open. I know you’re on your way lover man. When? Where? Oh, wait, I’m supposed to be naked on a mountaintop. A freezing cold mountain top. I think the naked is the point of this but how can one miss that at 29,000 feet there is no warmth and no oxygen. heh.

So I’m going with the last sentence, which is so easy for this pagan. Sacred and naked, blended. Hmmm. How many ways I do this?

  • A bath comes first to mind, well after the sex thought of course. Hmmm maybe sex AFTER the bath…
  • Do I eat a mango naked like Sark recommends?
  • Self Blessing Ritual

or maybe he means figuratively…

  • Vulnerable
  • Open
  • Naked to the world
  • Play the fool (it IS april)

Hmmm, I think I already do all this stuff… Oh, which is a nice segue for a compliment I received from this weekend.

Evidently I am a Hottie. This was said by two people. Nice tush was mentioned too. I’m just pleased as punch that at 48 I can still make them talk.

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Cancer for the week

Some readers get mad when I quote leaders they consider immoral. If you’re like that, you may be upset that this horoscope cites Jack Welch. He was the longtime CEO of General Electric, which makes critical components for more nuclear weapons systems than any other company. (So says the Academy-Award-winning documentary film Deadly Deception: General Electric, Nuclear Weapons, and Our Environment.) In my defense, my policy is to learn from everyone, even villains and adversaries I disagree with. The coming weeks will be an excellent time for you to adopt that same attitude. I suggest that you gather information from every useful source as you rev up and fine-tune your ambition. Now here are Welch’s rules for success: 1. Control your destiny or someone else will. 2. Face reality as it is, not as it was or as you wish it would be. 3. Be candid with everyone. 4. Change before you have to.

You know, I’ve been leaning this way of late. I feel very motivated to get going on selling my work on a more regular basis. The way I’ve been doing things up to now is when I get tired of something I sell it. Or if I’m going on a trip or want to do a bit of a fundraiser, I sell something. Most of the rest I give away. Continue reading