Cancer for the week

From Rob Brezsny’s Free Will Astrology

How well are you capitalizing on this year’s unique opportunities, Cancerian? Now that we’re halfway through 2008, let’s take an inventory. I’m hoping that six months from now, you will look back and make the following declaration: “This year I discovered everything that’s important to know about what I don’t need and who I don’t want to be. That’s one of the important reasons why — hallelujah! — I’ve learned to avoid the suffering that comes from wishing my life were different from how it actually is. I’m more at peace with my soul’s idiosyncratic destiny than I’ve ever been.”

I think I’m passing with flying colors.  Woot!

High as a kite.  Soaring even…

Daily Coyote and friends

It’s time to post about some of my fav blogs. Today will be the daily photo blogs…

Daily Coyote is #1 of all time for me. I check this blog every day even if I don’t have time to check any others. I live to see Charlie and sometimes Eli. Today was an extra treat because the author has a new puppy.

Beyond the Fields We Know ~ KerrdeLune lives away from the city and its lights and is an amazing photographer. What a treat.

Bountiful Healing ~ Today’s lovely is lettuce…

Free as a Bird

I feel like myself again! I’m smiling at people again. I’m laughing. I’m talking to strangers. It’s good to be home again. I was even able to be nice this morning to the one person who being nice to has been so hard. Is that a sentence? A grammatically correct sentence? Do we care? No.

I decided on my drive home last night that I needed to mark this occassion with a treat. That this was a huge step in my life, off the steepest legal* cliff so far (well except for that adoption but I digress), and I needed to mark it. If I was Johnny Depp I’d get a new tattoo but I’m allergic to the nickle in tatto ink alas and I can’t drink so what were my options in the moment on the fly. I had a huge bag of books ready to go to half-price books conveniently in the back seat. Turned the car around et voila!

*many illegal cliffs in my past, it’s a wonder I’m free at all!

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And things I look forward too

I’ve been musing over the benefits of working as a freelancer out of my home. There appear to many and some of them just weren’t that obvious to me. But I’m getting happier and happier about the potential here. Just heard from my new “agent” and she has even more work coming my way. woohoo!

  • I will be MOBILE! Not in the car so much as having a laptop. A screaming fast laptop.
  • I can take the day off and the day after sabbats off or at least sleep in!
  • If I have cramps (and some months they are brutal) or a migraine, unless I’m meeting a client, I don’t have to deal with it. Double woot!
  • I can take a vacation and since I’m mobile, I can work there too. I’m looking at the possibility of going to France this autumn (brother mentioned something about buying me a ticket) and I could even work part time while there (Not as weird as it sounds, I’ve been a couple times now, seen most of the local sights and sites). Just hanging with my peeps and maybe a little work on my own schedule? Heaven. I could do that from the San Juans, France, the park.
  • Can work at night instead of early in the morning (yes 9:30 is early in the morning, 11 is not late at night, I am a late person)
  • I could work outside on my shady patio
  • I can pet the cat
  • I don’t have to worry about work clothes (would only need a few things for those public moments)
  • I could walk around our local lake in the morning when I’m refreshed, not in the evening when I’m exhausted (and so I never do)
  • I could work on my sewing when I get a brain freeze, especially in design phase or if dealing with tough code and waiting for the inspiration solution to hit.
  • I can take a nap and then go back to work refreshed in the evening
  • I can work from the lake if I can get wireless
  • I can decide not to take work if the client sucks

This list will grow, yes I’m sure it will.

I’m already planning my new laptop cover/bag. *laugh* I have the perfect fabric, teal blue ultrasuede with teal sequins and embroidered flowers. It occurred to me as I was stocking up on the pattern sale at Joann’s this weekend that those conservative pants and jackets and stuff? I just have no need for them any more. I didn’t need them much anyway but I like to get patterns that are timeless. And it suddenly occurred to me that because I am a webmaster and people expect a bit of the odd duck about our type, that I could have sparkly tote bags and the like. And suddenly I feel very extra happy.

My new hairstyle gets the compliments but it feels a bit conservative to me. Folks say it makes me look younger which is always a bonus but I look in the mirror and I’m reminded of Sally Fields in Steel Magnolias. “Shelby was right! It IS a big brown football helmet!” Except mine is silver. So might have to go to our more radical Rudy’s and get a bit more shaggy. I can always trust them to take a little risk.  I did buy a blow dryer (the first in at least 10 years) and curling iron (the only one I’ve ever owned) but I have a lot to learn about how to use them. *laugh*

Baby crows are cawing and whining and screaming. A lot. And then you can hear them get a throatful. Caw, caw, caw, stranglegluggargle, caw caw! A squirrel drinking from the leaking sprinkler in the grove by my office (I would miss campus, it would be nice to be here some of the time), didn’t care about me standing there watching, she was just stretching and licking. Pretty cute. I love watching animals in action.

The sun was out all weekend, we had shishkabob last night (and today for lunch), and it still is today. Gorgeous day. They say clouds (but not rain) are moving in tonight and tomorrow for the rest of the week. I must remember to water even though it is cloudy. Hopefully the Litha celebrations this weekend will be dry and at least warm.

The Long Wait Begins

It’s really hard to sit here knowing I have to have that meeting with The Village Idiot and all the while knowing I’m quitting. I said I would do it and so I shall but I must say, I really don’t want to. I’m not ready financially to go yet but I am ready in every other way. Must sit on my hands. Must sit on my hands. And guard my tongue.

I’ve also decided that I am SO not counting on anything working out here. Not a wise move. It would be great if he were gone and I could work part time here. It really would be frikking awesome. But I simply don’t know enough to count on it. Must update my resume.

Not much to say right now because I’m simply in this weird limbo place. Too soon to plan TOO much, can’t order the laptop yet, that kind of thing. Trying not to worry about how I would make the rent and car payments, that kind of thing.